I know you see a lot of digital work coming from me. And I would like you all (if you want) to answer a question for me.

Would you like to see something other than digital work?
Perhaps some traditional work? Whether it be pencils, markers, or paint.

Tell me what you want me to do. Suggestions, or whatever. XD.
Because my creative juices are stunted, or leaking somewhere. xD.


Anything else you want to say? Have at it.

I know some of you have read my previous journal, it was basically me being a cry baby. Wah wah wah!!

Now I'm here to say, that it's got to be the weather that's really messing with me. One day I'm and the next I'm .

And I'm sure it's getting seriously irritating to some of you, because frankly, I'm tired of it myself. Lol.

There's been a change of plans. I've got the flu, but I'm going to continue working, because a lot of very amazing people told me the giving up and being a baby wasn't the answer.
And said I wasn't a failure despite my shortcomings.

Here's to amazing people!

People that make my life amazing:


I love you all!

Don't expect any art from me for a while.
I know I was doing so good for about a week or so. But no more.


Within the last couple days, I've come to terms which how much of a failure I really am. Maybe it's just a swing I'm having;
But upon evaluating some of the lives of the people I used to surround myself with, I realized that for the past 2-3 years of my life, I haven't grown up. I got so involved and consumed by what other people were telling me, and how they perceived me, that I forgot to examine myself and find out where I need to go. I got stuck in the "now". And I shut my blinds that viewed out the future.

I feel like I'm standing at the edge of cliff and the path behind me that I took has collapsed on me.
What now?

People my age that I knew finished school, settled for a relationship, got jobs, or are pursuing an actual career. I have nothing to show for my 19 years of existence, besides some shitty drawings and poetry.


Trapped within a mind
On the stake to burn
Thinking of my home
With false hopes to return
-Me

Be one of the first 18 people commenting on this journal entry, and I will add you to the Featured List!

For each of the 18 first people answering this journal I will put his/her avatar and the three deviations I like most from his/her gallery on the list.

If you answer, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing the list with 17 other people. The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone.

1. - She is someone that I can't get enough of. SUCH a hard worker, and truly trying to better herself, which she has done tremendously. <3
~ [link] - Green and pink? Hell-to-the-yes. The bright colours capture my goldfishy attention and the expression is lovely.
~ [link] - I love this one for the busy-ness I guess you would call it. Love those lips.
~ [link] - The story behind this one was so sad, but so good. Bold expressions = me likey.

2. - Let me just say, this chica is hilarious. She's always got me roffling my waffles. And she's got so many talents. She can adapt to many different forms of art.
~ [link] - This is probably one of my favorites in her gallery, I personally LOVE shiny moving things. Amazing colours and smooth movement.
~ [link] - This one drives me mad. It's so pretty, and expressive. I used to hate vector work. Then I saw this and realized I had only seen shitty ones. Lol.
~ [link] - Also one of my favs due to the colours. Three things in this picture capture me personally : Eye, snowflake, and wings. So lovely.

3. - One of the BEST pixel artists I've seen for his age; he's REALLY got something going for him, and he's going for the gold!
~ [link] - This shat is awesome. There's so much detail in such a small area. You can tell he spent time on it.
~ [link] - This one is just weird. Lol. But it's so awesome.
~ [link] - I tried drawing him and failed. But Rehu did a great job on him. Don't you just wanna hug him?

4. - She is VERY special to me. She comes to the same church as me and she's the girlfriend of one of my best friends in the whole world. She has such a good heart, and just, really someone you'd want on your side. I love her.
~ [link] - This is pretty freaking awesome! Could you picture something like that coming after you!? XD.
~ [link] - O-o-oa-oa! Lol, who doesn't like that song and dance? This girl works with a mouse!
~ [link] - Awesome as hail. If I were a pokemon, I would be like.. whichever one is the craziest or huge ones. XD

5. - My previous journal was mostly about her. Being an all-amazing person. Love her or I'll kill you. Anyway, what mostly draws me to her gallery are pieces like this:
~ [link] - O. M. G. Isn't that gorgeous?! My pictures always turn out like colourful turds. And look at it's thorns! Amazing.
~ [link] - This makes me jealous. Because where I live, you can't see natural beauty like that. Pastel colours are captivating.
~ [link] - Sexxxxy. Woo hoo. Who doesn't love Prince of Persia? The games pissed me off though. Too much brain power required.

6. is a fabulous photo-manipulator. And she's so gorgeous. =]
~ [link] - This is my ultimate favorite in her gallery. She chose the perfect stocks images for this, and they all just blend and complete eachother. Stunning.
~ [link] - This is just a given, beautiful colours. And that's her own eye. Yay for using resources.
~ [link] - This one is also awesome.

7. - She's my best friend in the entire universe. Hands down. No other person in the world can take her place. <3 She inspired me so much to draw, when I used to go to her house she would show me drawings, and I told myself "I want to draw like her." Of course, back then we were unimaginable nerds. It was scary. We've accepted this.
~ [link] - Any IZ fans? This makes me smile when I see it. Heh.
~ [link] - My attention always draws to those scissors. Lol.
~ [link] - I think what draws me to this one, is the fact that I've already been let in on how it's gonna be coloured. XD. So I'm really excited for this piece. It's got potential!

8. - Such an improving artist. Hard working. And absolutely hilarious. This guy, makes my day, almost everyday now that I've met him.
~ [link] - I love the perspective on this one. It's awesome.
~ [link] - Everyone loves a Bot. It's shinnnnnny!
~ [link] - This one is so cute to me. It's inspired me to make something similar. It gives me a feeling of captivation for his character.

9. - This kid also one of my cherished friends. Though he's just now getting started with photo-manipulating, he's getting better. And all around, he's a great friend.
~ [link] - My fav so far.
~ [link] - Prose. Unfinished, but a nice start.

10. - A good friend of mine. And a GREAT artist. Many talents indeed.
~ [link] - A great design. SDL stuff. Clean lines and amazing colour.
~ [link] - Simplistic, but skillful. :3
~ [link] - More SDL. Again, great colouring and style.

11. - Mostly a pencil/traditional artist. She's a deviant of many talents indeed. Crafts and all. Such a good friend.
~ [link] - The first thing I ever saw in her gallery. With clothing, she's like a master!
~ [link] - HAND MADE BRACELETS. (Her friend helped) But those are amazing! Theres more in her gallery too, check them out.
~ [link] - Another GREAT traditional drawing. And her gorgeousness in the BG. XD

12. - Isn't a renowned artist, but I recognize him most by his passion for all things retarded and hilarious. AND he's a DJ. An absolute music FREAK. Check him out.
~ [link] - This is one of his favorite things ever.
~ [link] - This a nice picture, a waterfalllll. Yay.
~ [link] - I wasn't kidding in above comment. xD.

13. - A fractal, and vector artist. AND a great photographer.
~ [link] - A GORGEOUS picture. Go look.
~ [link] - I love this because it's so busy and bright.
~ [link] - I would hang this on my wall if it matched my room. I LOVE those colours.

14. - Has some fabulous photos and vector work. I can't wait to get to know him better!
~ [link] - The combination of yellow/black/white and orange is so pretty, and it gives a happy mystic feeling in your mouth. Yes I said it. YOUR MOUTH.
~ [link] - I don't know, but this attracts my attention almost instantly. The site of destruction does that sometimes. XD
~ [link] - YOU NEED TO WATCH! This is SOOO cute, and amazing. It makes me feel sad. xD But fabulous too.
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You ever have one of those days, where someone is nice to you because they're SUPPOSED to? So they do the minimal and say they've done their part?

Well, I'm here to tell you slackers, that it does NOT cut it.

Is that what the world has degraded itself to? Lazy inconsiderates? Who am I kidding? Of COURSE it has!
There are some people, yes, who no matter what, are smiling and being kind no matter what.

I'll give you an epic example.
is someone I haven't known for an extremely long time, but what just about anyone who crosses her path can tell you about her, is that she is ALWAYS a welcoming, warm, and helpful person. I can't tell normally when she's in a bad mood, because she's so kind to people. Always willing to help, pass on advice, and just plain BE THERE in your time of need.
And sure! She's human (or so we think), she has stress in her life, and problems just like anyone else. And bless her heart I've not heard her blow up on anyone.

Why are people only doing as little as they can get away with? I try SO hard to be as welcoming and friendly as Ella-Kayleigh.

Q: Why am I talking about Ella?
A: Because she's amazing.

Q: Why has this subject persuaded me to write a journal?
A: Because on my birthday, I don't like being treated like a real person, if it's just a facade. Don't lie to me, and put on a friendly mask unless you mean it. Because I'm not stupid.

What I'm really trying to say; is be kind to people because when you do, you feel better about YOURSELF. It's not just about the other person. You WILL feel good. Unless you're a heartless sociopath.

If you're not an enjoyable person.. stay the heck away from those who are trying to live their life as a friend, and not a fiend. Fake intentions are annoying.

And thanks for being my guinea pig. XD