First of all... where in the world do you live? It seems like you're always online. It's 3 AM where I am.

Anyway, I'm glad that you're taking the time to step back and evaluate yourself, because it's good to get a reality check every once and awhile and continue to desire to improve yourself. BUT just so you know, I'm positive you have a lot more to show for your 19 years of existence than just some "shitty drawings and poetry" (I disagree with that sentiment, by the way - a lot of people make a living out of creating crappy artwork!). For one thing, you're alive. Being a fellow sufferer of mental illness, I know that means you've had to overcome some really shitty obstacles. And whether you want to believe it or not, you've impacted someone's life majorly in some way and they love you for it. So perk up.

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Do whatcha gotta do, though you best keep in touch.

Hit me up, my contact info is on my personal site. If you need some advice, or just need an ear, I'm here.

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"Halo Co-op? I liked it better when it was called Contra"

Gl with your venture, though i hope you'll still come on occasionally and let us know how you are and stuff. We are always here to lend an ear

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The voices in my head may not be real, but they have great ideas

[link] <- evidence of how weird i am

Better than making bad decisions and having to deal with them for the next... 18 years of your life.

(marrying the wrong guy at the wrong age AHEM yes I know a thing or two about that)


You're only 19. Don't be so hard on yourself. BUT DO get up and do what you can to make yourself better! Always.

The power of positivity - if you really are embracing it - is AMAZING.

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Chicky & Rew comics | every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

Don't Be ashamed Whit, everyone does something on there own pace. If you really want to change, then take hold of life's horns and steer the direction you want to.Make your life the way you want it to be.It's great that you are making an evaluation of yourself, it always helps to remember your flaws, except them, and try to improve on things. And as for the fact of "the only thing I have to for 19 years are some drawings and poetry", there are people younger than you, my dear Whit, that are druggies and do not even have a penny to there name. You on the other hand are still young deary, and you can do a lot of things you want! A LOT of things!! The trick of being happy, regardless of what you are, is being positive. Just think of all the great things you have done, all the people you have befriended, and all the amazement you gain from people who look at your literature or art. So, Whitney, cheer up ok? You have a long life to look forward to and you also have time to be who you want to be. I hope you can change your emoticon to happy instead of shame. Lift your head up high kid, and piss on anyone who says otherwise!



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and i will remember your name and face
on the day you are judged by the funhouse cast
and i will rejoice in your fall from grace
with a cane through the sky like "none shall pass"

You are not a failure. Looook at the aaaaarts... You've got a talent. Pursue it.

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-Bring it I'll whoop you and all your friends!!!
-hehe... you know i was joking, right?

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Life. It's a love/hate relationship.

''eople my age that I knew finished school, settled for a relationship, got jobs, or are pursuing an actual career. I have nothing to show for my 19 years of existence, besides some shitty drawings and poetry.'',

Nah don't sweat it sweetheart, people walk different paths, you should be proud of the steps you've taken, they're yours after all. and quite honestly there is only the NOW, be in the now. And growing up is a process is not a one step deal, take your time, think things out and then act, acting to soon or out of feelings you should have acted will only result in regret and bitterness toward yourself and others.

''I feel like I'm standing at the edge of cliff and the path behind me that I took has collapsed on me.
What now?
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The choice is simple, you can't obviously go back, there is no where to step, and if you stay still in that spot it will only crumble and take you down, so only place left is forward, just gotta take that step.

You're not a failure. You're a talented artist.
Give yourself a break, you're only 19. You may have backtracked a bit in how far you wanted to have come by now, but it's not too late, just keep trying. Get yourself to where you want to be instead of bitching about it. I don't mean that in an unsympathetic way, I'm just saying.

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Don't forget to love you Noodles!

You are NOT a failure, anyone who can draw AND write as well as you can't be. And you know what? Those people you know will probably have just graduated from high school, and got a job at minimum wage, and as for the people who settled for relationships, i'm not going to say that love shouldn't come early because it does sometimes, however that doesn't mean it can't happen a little later, i mean, people can usually go till they're in their twenties or thirties till they find someone they want to share the rest of their life with. Besides, half of them probably didn't know what the hell they were doing and are going to end up paying for it for the rest of their lives . So you can feel down on yourself all that you want, but i've only known you one day and i can tell that you are a genuinely nice person, and that's far more than a lot of people nowadays can say. And your art is great, i would KILL to be able to draw like you guys (and frankly your poetry would kick mine's ass). Feel better plz
you can has virtual pie

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